I always find it surprising how we can pray and pray and pray, and sometimes forget what we prayed for. That is until what we pray for comes along.
This is especially true this year. So many years have passed when i have always bought a new littman classic stethoscope after being so careless and lost the others. When i want to buy these, I usually spend extra time in the store, looking at the cardiac steth and testing it out on my chest, marveling at how much more loud and clear the sounds are. I would then check the price, and more often than not, it would be higher than 10,000 pesos.
Now the funny thing about working for your own money is that you think that there is a certain level when you will be more comfortable buying something, even if it is expensive, eventually. But no, that time never comes. One will just give a wistful stare, a sigh, a shrug of both shoulders and move about in my own way.
I guess this came for me because this year, i have made the conscious effort to shy away from materialism. When i really want something, I always ask if it is worth the cost. Meaning that it will not be clutter, or if there is an inexpensive alternative that will fill its role. Usually, I lose when the self debate involves trips with friends, because with those i realize, i buy the time with friends, more than the trip.
My better self usually wins the debate regarding material things.
However, God does not leave us to be alone.
After years and years and years of staring and stroking many cardiac steths that came my way, I received one this July from a cousin of mine, whose dad my sister and i watched out for. Yes, my sister and I each got one! And i feel like i was so lucky i didn't buy one anymore, because i got one for free!
Today was also a similar day. Back in February, I lost my wallet to bukas kotse gang, and just grabbed a paper bag as an alternative wallet. A few days after, while clutter cleaning at home, i found an old organizer aka wallet in my drawer. (yes, go for clutter cleaning!) . Its been falling apart the last few months, but lo and behold when i went to clinic today, this greeted me!
And just like that, i have a new wallet.
The story gets more amazing when i tithed last week. I gave (what i thought) was an extraordinary amount, 10% of my income for a good month. Imagine my surprise when that day, i already got the corresponding amount through two cheques that i received that day!
God is really sovereign. Somehow, trusting Him in one aspect of life makes all the rest easier.
So as of this writing, I am challenged, but inspired to trust, in that one aspect of life i am praying for the most. I still hear the His quiet voice staying, "Steady ka lang diyan, trust."
So I try to.
Trust and Clutter Clearing for Manifested Prayers. Always very therapeutic. :)
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epilogue
The day after this entry, I messaged two close friends of mine I have not seen in a long time.
5: 49 pm
Me: Nakakatawa girls, sobrang benign ko ngayon, pero i am really thankful, kasi ang dami kong nagagawa for myself. pero hindi ako sanay sa time. Miss ko na kayo! naisip ko nga, ano ba ang gagawin natin sa lahat ng oras at pera na meron tayo when we cant spend it with anyone? ahahhahaha, hating the fact na malayo kayo, but loving the fact that you guys are my friends, messaging you both with love!
5:58 pm
Friend: I set ulit ang out of town.
6:45 pm
Friend: Conference tomorrow at hotel in makati? Free. (messaged paraphrased!). Need two names. PM me asap.
And just like that, we had a spontaneous night out with each other and more friends!
Imagine that! Here is to more answered prayers and being thankful for them!
